Writing about porn, but not watching porn

Here’s a fun fact: I started Pornucate at a time when I was insecure over the amount of porn I watched. I actually wasn’t watching much porn at all. I was becoming more conscious and self-aware of how much pornography I consumed during the day.

I went an entire month without watching porn last summer. Amazing thing, that month of celibacy wasn’t even intentional. I had a bad sexual experience, and out of the necessity to not be home and having too much on my mind, I found myself not watching porn.

It didn’t hit me until three weeks. I found myself getting erections a lot faster (and seemingly over nothing), masturbating without the use of visuals, and being more social. The first and last discoveries make sense. I was getting hard due to having zero stimulation during the day, and social outings were replacing the times I would otherwise watch porn.

But that second one. That second discovery is something else. Because the second discovery shows a reconnection with my body and touch that was otherwise missing.

I remember a time when I couldn’t masturbate to a video of a solo girl, and God forbid if she was fully clothed. Nope, I needed some action, something hardcore, something active. Yet here I was, jerking off, to nothing but the mere touch of my hand on my dick.

Now let’s fast forward to when I started Pornucate. A big reason why this blog exists is because I wanted to write about porn without having to constantly look at it. Predictably, as I began writing about porn, I found myself watching it.

man watching porn
We are going to see what happens when I put down the phone, close the laptop, and stop watching porn for a month. I might turn into the Hulk, I dunno.

Now I would be the last person to claim that porn is bad. I can certainly admit the social and psychological issues that porn can present, but I also wouldn’t go as far as to say that porn should go away. Not even close.

But I will always contend that over-consumption of pornography is problematic. While embracing my enjoyment for porn has killed some of the shame I have had over it, I still feel a significant physical difference when I’m not watching porn everyday. And it’s that reason why I’m doing this challenge.

For the next month, I will not watch a second of porn. No Freeones, no Pornhub, no movie trailers. But I will continue writing Pornucate.

This blog is filled with posts and topics that do little to raise your dopamine levels and get you on a porn high. So writing won’t present much of an issue while conducting this challenge. But that does mean posts where we praise pornstars will have to take a backseat in exchange for updating you on my progress.

Here are the rules of the challenge so there is no confusion:

  • I cannot watch porn. That goes without saying.
  • I can masturbate, but I cannot masturbate to porn.
  • Cinematic movies with nudity do not count, unless it is clearly softcore porn masquerading as a film. For example: Wetlands and Nymphomaniac have a lot of nudity and sex but are also legitimate films about sexuality and culture. Immoral Tales is just 1970’s excuse to show bushes and sex. I cannot watch Immoral Tales.
  • If a post requires me to do too much searching for porn media, I need to bail on that post immediately.
  • Animated porn still counts as porn.
  • Everything I document has to be honest.

There is a litany of things that might happen during this month: I might become a sexual superman or not have sex at all, masturbate too much or never touch myself, crack in 15 days or keep the streak going, become more productive or sit idly in depression, socialize more or become closed in, get raging erections or stay limp, become a better writer or bore the true porn viewer. I don’t know. But I’m curious to find out.

It sounds dumb. On a blog about porn where I don’t even discuss the latest and greatest in the industry, I’m now taking things a step further by not watching porn at all. But that is the point of Pornucate: to take a deeper look at the place and power porn has in our culture.

This challenge may be the essence of what I want the blog to be, going beyond the media and just looking at porn as an artifact. I’ll still talk about porn categories. But sandwiched within that and other posts, we’ll see if a reprieve from porn results in anything tangible.

I’m on Day 5 right now and feeling good. Let’s see if I can keep it up.

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